I’ve never been one in favor of Valentine’s Day.
Sure, we had fun giving little meaningless cards to each other in middle school. We thought it would be funny to hand them out in highschool. A good excuse to eat candy. If you were lucky, you had a significant other to spend the day with.
I suppose it was my inability to love and receive people’s love that forced me to put walls up on this “special” day. And other many other days for that matter.
I remember thinking this time last year about how great it was going to be. Finally having a boyfriend… A Valentine. Things rarely work out the way you want them to. In the case of that relationship things never worked out the way I wanted them to.
One of my best friends, Spruell (Brian), decided to be mine, Kelsey, and Steph’s “Valentine”. He took us out to dinner before youth, bought us stuff, and treated us well. He’s been a good friend. I remember driving on the back roads in Deland, heading to Lake Mary with him. I remember I spent time on how I looked that day. I did it with one person in mind, the person I had done so many things for. Not ten minutes into my drive I received a text from him telling me his dad wasn’t letting him go to youth that night. I managed to not cry from another disappointment from him. Plus, Spruell, being the good friend that he is, was going to treat my two friends and I to a fun night.
That was the first Valentine’s Day I did something with other people. The first time someone took me out, even as a friend.
This year will be better. Of course, the obvious downside is I’m single. But I’d rather be single that with still with him.
I’ve come to meet some great people. I’ve grown closer to some since this time last year. I’ve made totally new friends.
I can’t say that this day will be bad or depressing. I feel for one of my best friends who’s plans have completely changed on this day. It makes me a little sad for her, but I know she will be okay. I know and she knows that Someone else is in control. After school and work we will spend a lovely evening, enjoying each other’s company, each other’s frendship. I’ll skip out on the gym to spend time with her. We’ll eat tasty food. And we’ll probably end the night at our favorite coffee shop, where the whipped cream is plentiful.
The day started out well anyhow, by started I mean before I went to sleep. Sometimes, a random conversation and random questions can brighten your day.
Somehow, even though I was up till 3 engaging in said conversation, I was wide awake by 8:30. I fell back asleep, only to wake up at 9.
This day will continue. I’d like a kiss by the end of the 14th. However, I’m not counting on it. Just a kiss… Please?
I’m going to agree with someone on this:
“Valentine’s Day is lame.. let’s make out”
-amen.
you’ll be given love
you’ll be taken care of
you’ll be given love
you have to t r u s t it
maybe not from the sources you have poured yours
maybe not from the direction you are staring at
{{twist your head around}}
it’s all around you
all is full of love
