You don’t have to live like this

I’m back at Coffee Cafe. I should be finishing up my philosophy paper. One thousand words on my life philosophy, which is only made slightly difficult due to having to incorporate several theories from the lectures, some of which I am still trying to comprehend. I have 722 words done, but a good bit of information still to cover. I will finish it and edit it before I leave here… maybe. I wrote the first part here yesterday, at this same table, drinking the same type of tea… and then two cups of coffee.

I have greatly enjoyed this break from school, even though I am actually working on homework.

I have been working on not worrying or paying much attention to certain people. That sounds bad. I do not so much mean I have “given up” on people, or that I hate these people, or that I even do not like them. But I tend to dwell on these things, these people. I often hold onto their lack of courtesy (calling back, breaking plans last minute, and so on). I hold onto their habit of being late or saying one thing and doing another. SO in that sense, I’m learning to just let it go. To not worry about it, to not chase after these people. But to put the effort in and leave the response up to them. This is not a bad thing. You just have to see that I am the sort that will wait around for you to call when you say you will call. I am the type to not make plans with other people because we made mention of hanging out this day or that day. I am of the sort that will wait around in a coffee shop, in her car, driving around until you get back to me if you said you would. So you see, this is a good thing. A good lesson I am learning. Sometimes waiting around for people brings you down… And that makes me want to live life to the fullest along with the people that are here. Not waiting for the people that are coming… in a few hours.

Anyways, I’m not too sure that made total sense.

I have been really going over and soaking in everything from Rob Bell. Reading my notes and others and the Bible. Sort of reading along with what’s been going on at Status… and re-reading stuff that now makes sense thanks to good pastors/speakers. I searched for some notes from Rob Bell’s The Gods Aren’t Angry Tour and found some good ones. The end of the message was one of my favorite parts… here this guy’s notes from it (with some slight editing):

He shared more stories…. One of a man who asked a woman who had been seeing visions of Jesus to ask him what sins he had committed…and the woman told him Jesus said, “I don’t remember.” He told a story of a woman who had been violently disfigured in an accident and her husband, when seeing her mangled face for the first time, kissed her and said, “I like it.” Rob telling a girl who had brought shame to her family, “You don’t embarrass me.”

That’s Christ, that’s the nature of God.

He doesn’t remember. He likes you. He doesn’t hate you. The very air we breathe is His love for us. We have no need to impress, give more, improve, or perform. We don’t have to live like that. He came. The sacrifice has been made. At the culmination of the ages, Christ stands… and this God isn’t angry. This God is love.

I have my “Write That Paper!” playlist on (mostly The Album Leaf and Sigur Ros) so I should probably actually write that paper… so that I can then write another short paper and work on Algebra.

love.