Dear Me(mory),
You can be easily irritated. Sometimes there’s no reason and you just need to take a break, breathe in, and find the beatuy in and around you. Other days, you have a sort of excuse, those few days that are fairly exclusive to women. Do I get to excuse myself for being more irritable and sensitive? Does the “get over it” method still apply?
Today was the last of the “field trip” days. Tomorrow we take a quiz at 8:20am then write an essay due at 6. Then, it’s finished. We went to Dublin Castle (again, as I went last year) and awkwardly walked around the old Parliament building which is now a bank. We toured Kilmainham Jail and went our separate ways for lunch. We spent an hour getting to a cementary, which really seemed pointless to visit. However, it wasn’t totally a waste.
Somewhere between Indian food and reading the article for the quiz I started feeling cranky. I found the Cadbury shots that I had been wanting, and that is making me feel better/worse.
What am I learning?
You’re you wherever you are. We’re all changing and over time our different experiences change us and shape us. But there’s still that you, that part of you that is only yours and no one else’s. That voice, that smile, those eyes, that word spoken just then. You may see this as good or bad, depending on who you are on how you see yourself. It’s not always bad. Don’t lose that uniqueness in order to become a false idea someone else.
Some days I want Leo Buscaglia’s voice on my iPod and just have it going all day.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=opGlp1pE59s
Tonight I don’t want to read the article for the essay I have to write. Right now I want to have already taken a warm shower. I want to lay in bed, eating these Cadbury chocolates, watching Grey’s Anatomy until I fall asleep.
Tonight is not that night.
Such is life. And life, it is good.
Tags: irritable
